I like weird dreams. Dreams that you can barely even explain…you know the ones. When you say the words out loud, trying desperately to paint the picture of what happened and where you were but it wasn’t there, you feel like a complete fool.
This dream is not quite like that.
It begins here:
I’m sitting at a lunch table in my high school gymnasium. I remember the blue circle seats. I was sitting with someone I knew, but I can’t recall who it truly was. It felt like we were friends.
I glanced over my left shoulder and saw my mother at the head table, near the stage. I saw her from behind. I recognized her twisted bun. A man approached her table and hunkered down to her left her. I gasped. My heart began to beat faster and I stood up. I shot up, actually.
Next thing I know, I’m crouched to my mom’s right side saying ‘Want to introduce me to your friend?’ I have some shit-eating grin on my face as I look to him for the answer and not my mom. My mom was merely the portal.
He smiles and opens his arms as if to say ‘come and sit on my lap.’ I did not sit on his lap.
It’s Eddie. Eddie fucking Vedder.
We proceed to chat for approximately 4 sentences about my high school gym and how great it is.
Blink of the eyes and I’m back in my blue circle lunchtable seat with a co-worker…different person than was initially sitting at my table. She’s gushing and asks me if I gave him one of my business cards. I hadn’t. I felt completely deflated and totally elated at the same time.
The dream lasted mere moments in the 5 minutes I snoozed back to sleep after my alarm went off. Interesting all the things that can transpire in 5 minutes in your brain, isn’t it?
Thank goodness. I’ve had many sleeps since my last dream with an Eddie appearance.
It began at a show. Not a Pearl Jam show, but a sort of lip sync/air guitar variety show. I was chosen to perform a Tom Petty tune and was pretty stoked to show my skills. I recall having an awfully strange, blonde, Paige boy wig on. Perhaps it was my actual hair. I know not.
As another performer was onstage, I spotted Eddie. I approached him knowing he would respect that I was in the show. He was Eddie… although his face was young, pink and dewy, with no beard or sexy stubble in sight. His curly hair was to his ears and it was so greasy and shiny. Each curl around his face was shorter and more defined. Maybe it was because of there being no beard on his face, but his teeth looked bigger and a little bit buck-toothed.
I approached him and said something to the effect of: Hi Eddie, I just wanted to say that I was at the show in Milwaukee. Great show, thank you.
The look of confusion and disgust on his shiny unfamiliar face sank my warm, adoring heart. I walked away, head hanging low… onto my Tom Petty performance.
On stage, I strummed the first bars of the song on my imaginary guitar and leaned into the microphone to lip the opening line of the song. To my dismay, I lipped the wrong words!! And then my guitar strumming became off beat!! The horror!!
I glanced over at Eddie after my on-stage nose dive. He shook his glistening head in even more disgust at me. I felt pitiful.
Although it wasn’t the dream I dream about… where we become best friends and he brings me on tour to entertain him… I am grateful to have his strangely shiny presence grace my brain.
We are heading to get my Lovely #1’s passport today. Her 4th grade class is taking a trip this spring to Denmark. Seriously. 4th grade. International travel!! I’m so grateful she has all these opportunities so early in life. I anticipate her getting bit by the travel bug while she’s away…which means that I will have to start saving even more money so that we can hop on planes and take adventures.
I was scrolling through my old photos and came across some beauties from Hawaii. It seems like ages ago that we went, but in reality, it’s been only a year and a half. Then I got to thinking about all the places there are to go…and how few I’ve actually been to. And how few the kids have been to. What are we doing? Why aren’t we saving every single penny so that we can travel the world? Why aren’t we taking a cross-country road trip every summer?? There are so many great places we can drive to! I’m tired of these pesky jobs and obligations getting in the way. It’s time to reorganize priorities and budgets, don’t you think? Although, we probably don’t have to break the bank if we’re road tripping.
Where would you go if budget and time wasn’t an issue?
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