I like hiding out.
Duality. That’s the word I’m looking for. Or recluse……introvert perhaps.
I’ve been trying to put into words or tangible thoughts the dual world that I sometimes feel I live.
Let me explain. I have a very social job. I must be the day-maker for my people and I must be chatty and all that greatness. I have to try to be the best part of their day. I enjoy it, I really do, it’s a blast.
Then, when I have my time to myself, I prefer to not speak for hours. I prefer to be alone. If I’m out shopping and I see someone I might know, I might pretend not to see them, and I might dodge into another aisle.
It’s just that I’m not prepared to be on. I’m not in that role in that moment and I honestly just don’t want to disappoint them. I’m not as personable and funny as when I’m working.
It’s the right versus the left brain yet again. Everyday.
Introvert. I think that’s the correct word. I need alone time to recharge.
I like to hide under napkins in the sunlight, much like lovely #1.