There are ideas racing through both sides of my brain. I am loving them and doubting them at the same time. I have to be rational and logical and also creative and expressive. There is much to organize, thought-wise. Where to begin?
This is a time that I need focus and research and uninterrupted creative process. I am optimistic I will get in a groove, a flow, and no one will be able to stop me then.
I suppose I should talk to my husband about all this…seeing as though it will affect every aspect of our lives. I think he’ll be supportive. I mean, I know he’s supportive, but I don’t know if I can express my ideas clearly to him…because he thinks differently. There are people who I can say three words and they get it. With him, sometimes, I need to explain and re-explain to the point where I don’t even know what I mean anymore. I guess it’s me that should try to narrow and focus my ideas.
That’s the point…that’s the trouble. I have too many ideas. That is the whole idea! This is why they race around my head. Who will win? Who will be dead last?
I suppose I just don’t want to be disappointed and fail. So I am doubting myself in that regard, but I also know that this is what I am supposed to do for the next chapter of my life. Maybe the next two or three hopefully. I want to make sure it’s done right.